I can really empathise with you about the medications.
Not only have I got off all the antedepressants but now I am having to come of painkillers that I have been on continuosly for the last 7 yrs due to a neck injury. Its really difficult and the drugs become a habit and a crutch. It is worth it though - my H says its like getting me back again. I know it can really drag you down but the end result will be worth it.
best wishes
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength