H left me 2yrs now. none of my efforts have helped. He just wants D. I don't know why I want to stay with him after these past 2 years of emotional hell for me. But there was so much good there. He just stopped wanting my physically though he says there was no OW. Of course that was not OK but I was worried for a long time he was having a physical problem. I'm not gordeous, but I'm not a dog either, I've gained and lost 20lbs at one time but one time he said "it's not that" i.e. gaining weight. He blames it on my waiting for many months when we were going out. And that he got turned off by sleeping with me but not having sex. But it was great when we finally did, he broke up with me for a while before we married but then came back. Sex was great when we had it. But he didn't want it that often, and I was often the initiator. Then we went through infertility treatments that didn't work. I've just been frozen, he stopped being nice and even talking to me when I didnt sign sep papers.
Anyhow, he came today to take even more items. (he's been slowly taking them away). It was his taking of some items underthings and some other clothes that were here, I used to smell them sometimes. Is that weird. I feel like I just can't stand it. I just want to scream and cry and beg, but I didn't. He says he's moving across the country, he got a job offer there. I'm so heartbroken, every part of me is screaming NO. And I am so powerless to do anything.
I don't know what to do, but just give up. Should I go ahead and sign sep papers? I feel like I'm going to die. I know God will get me through but I just feel awful. Please help. ask questions make suggestions. Should I do a 180 file myself, sign seps. Please help. I"ve read DB and DR, I recommend them to people all the time, I say "I wish I'd found them sooner". It seems so hopeless. I've been trying to hold out hope. It seems a little late for consults. I'd gone through all the Marriagemax CDs. I don't know if that helped or hurt.
Should I just throw in the towel?
I have to go out now. But I will check back online and I'm hoping for some sage advice.
