I didn't stay detached...didn't know how to stay detached and be in a r..didn't make much sense to me..but I know now that it is what I must do.
I cannot let what h does and doesn't do effect me I cannot let what h says and doesn't say effect me I cannot let h effect me
I must focus on myself and do things that make me happy and stop worrying about whether or not h is happy...h isn't complaing so why am I.
at a loss
lovingly distant I must be
I await the ramifications of my outbursts last night...h did come home...h did sleep in my bed? puzzling to me why he would crawl into my bed at 3am after all that I said to him but he did honestly I was shocked to see him there...so much so that I thought he was my son and as I went to cuddle him realized it was h. I don't know what to think of that so I wont think about it at all. in fact I intend to act as if and let him do or say what he wants.
