Yiu are truly an amazing woman. Not only are you a wonderful friend, a compassionate friend and a great advisor, you can also look deep in to your own heart and see it so clearly. You amaze me. I have so much respect for you. I know without a doubt that your life will be exactly as you want it to be.
Don't be so hard on yourself for doubting. We all do and we want this over now! You will succeed because you are LL and you are wonderful! And most of all I'm so glad you are my very dear friend.