Hey, LL I wish that I could offer something to help you out...I have read your posts the last few days and you really seem to be digging deeper in your heart as to what you want and what you have...you and your h are still young..I look back on our 24 yrs together and I question if h and I really "love" each other, or if it became a habit, pattern..because we had 2 kids to raise...if our marriages were going along smoothly we would not have these thoughts, but our m are not going smooth, and I think most of us here on the board are having these same thoughts at one time or another.The question is when will we know if what we are doing or what we have accomplished is enough for us to be truly happy and fulfilled in the way we feel we deserve. I know i said it before, but your h has only been back for a short time..even though it seems like a long time, give yourself time to let your heart heal.. Sue
