just wanted to add more of that conversation...

I said to h, your not alone you know.
h said your not alone either.
I said I know I'm not alone, I think you missenterpert what I mean, I mean your not alone in the way you feel, I want you to know I'm hear if you need me.
h said I know, thank you.

that was that.

it's funny how this man can go pick me up cough medicine, offer to make me tea (I have an awful cold) make time for me to be able to do things..realize that he does love me but yet doesn't feel the way he thinks he should feel. how should we feel???

I don't know, I still don't know. will we both be happy?? or will we simply be content?? is that enough??

LL