Slogan for the Breast Cancer walk by my dear friend!
Or, in BNDs case "Replace the Tata's!"
Amy - nah, I don't think it's gonna be a tougher ride.
It's amazing how certain things come into your life. It's sad with your sis (not talking about it), but it's in your life now for a reason. Even if not to assist her, it's to look back at you.
Your H is opening up about that time. That's crucial. ANd, you're hearing it, and it's tough. But, always hang onto where you are now, how far you have come as a human being. That's incredible. You can face the past, but face it with the dignity, grace and strength of the woman you have become. Don't let that go to waste.
My brother went through a similar thing (probably QLC), and nearly destroyed his professional career (a Dr). He basically dropped out of life and blew it all. Only to wake up 1 year later and go for it again and finish. He had to go back to interviews, and explain what happened to him in life - and faced how it set him back and working hard to get back what he had. He said that it was the toughest thing he had to do....but doing it, and doing it himself, was also the most rewarding and life-changing.
Stay out of his way so I don't get my head bit off?
Seriously, I was over on Sunday. He had asked me to go through D11's closet. I ended up cleaning that, her dresser drawers and the rest of her room, too.
They were on the back porch and sometimes I just feel so completely out of the loop and not part of things.... Anyway, I had my purse and my Dr. Pepper and went out back to tell them I was done and leave. H asked where I was off to. I said "back to the apartment" and then I asked him if he wanted to ride with me to Durham this Saturday. I'm picking up S14 between here and my Dad's house in SC. H's brother lives in Durham so I thought we could stop and see him (this had previously been mentioned Friday night and he acted like it was a great idea)...but he acted as if it was just too far away to plan..."I'll have to see what's going on this week".
Um okay, NOTHING is going on that couldn't wait a day but whatever.
I haven't talked to him since Sunday.
I'm getting all fleshy and menstrual and that never leads anywhere good so I've just been quiet.
The two steps forward and three steps back thing is getting on my nerves.
I'm not bitching or whining, I'm just losing my focus.
I've been alone since pretty much since last Wednesday and it's starting to irk me.
She can't get too muscular before the implants, it makes it hard to get them in and makes them look all squishy.
Just go for nice long walks and stretch a lot Amy, that'll get you good and ready.
As for your actions, where is husband at? Still confused or just playing hard to get, looking for some pursuing on your part? Based on his opening up to you the other day, I'll bet that's what he's up to, stinker. Pride is a helluva drug man, a helluva drug.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
