guess the trouble is I don't believe it to be an mlc that h is going through... h has been "closed off" to me and to others for a long long time.. I suppose though it to be possible and long ago I did say to myself or others that h would be a prime cantidate for one...he did after all sink himself into a business at the young age of 19. thing is if there never were the ow I could have dealt with this all a whole lot easier...as I had already accepted that h was just emotionally closed off as a result of his business but to find that to not be the case...he was emotionally open to ow..so makes me think it is just me...I was not able to "pull him out" into the worl of the living and she was (a reference h made when we did go to c in begining of sep) I can and do live for myself...h does care for me and the children. of course I want more, most people would. can I survive all this if it is in fact and mlc??? time will tell but for now I have to live my life for me. and hope that h will soon decide to share withe me his life.
