Hey I know I don't post much to you anymore but I follow your saga. Most times I just don't know exactly what to say although I can empathize with many of your feelings, complaints and concerns. Your emotions are certainly on a ride (as are most of ours on here) Up and Down, Up and Down.
I think it's possible I was on the verge a WAW when my H started his EA as well. So I understand that too.
I guess I only have one point to make, I hope it doesn't come across as condemning or anything. First let me say I KNOW how much effort you have put into your M and I can completely understand your frustration, but I can't understand you saying you will just live unhappily and if another man comes along to give you what you need that H is failing to do....."AH, well, so be it, I tried" I'm having a hard time understanding that attitude.
LL, with all the knowledge you have you ought to know this can't work. First of all you know the pain it caused you, would you really want to inflict that on anyone, on your H? Even though he did to you, would you really want to do that. You may not think he would care, but I'm sure he would, I'm sure it would hurt him. Not only that you have the knowledge you can make an informed decision. If you have put forth all the effort you absolutely can and honestly feel like you have done your part, but your H simply can't or won't put forth his part. You can make the decision to leave the marriage, before you get involved with someone else. Don't consciously become a WAW LL, you know better. You stay and stay faithful or you leave respectfully. And you know how to leave in a manner that is not WA. I may not have worded this quite right, but hopefully you'll get the jist of what I'm saying. JMHO. Hope I didn't offend.
Think about it. Sorry things are so hard for you right now.
