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Have you really considered "pushing" a little more to go to C?


how many more times can I ask.
can I demand he go? (i know the answer to that one)

h is not ready...I don't know if h had the pa or not...doesn't matter...but I did tell him that he should have just gone and gotten it overwith then he'd see..

I know how it all works..I haven't lived in a box.

seems to me that h has live in the box of his business and now is finding himself not knowing what to do about it not needing him as much.

though I always aksed h to share his woes with me (even have a letter I wrote him about it) he never did, he played the "strong man" nothing bothers him. (yeah right what drugs are you taking that make you different fromt he rest of us humans) h doesn't want to lean on me.

I have a questionare that my c gave me...one for me and one for h...h saw it and asked what it was...that was that...I will ask him to fill it out...perhaps that may open some doors.
maybe when I go out tonight I will leave dr and mars and venus out on the table at least he can use them as coasters!! ha ha

I think h wants to try he just doesn't know how. I think h wants to be with me...he is just afraid to share his feelings with me.

thing is what he doesn't realize is that the feelings he has are not much different from the feelings I have. I'm just not dilluded into thinking that someone else would be better...yes they may be better at some things..they may be more physical..may be full of suggestions and inititate outings and romance but what will be missing?? the qualities I admire in h...I don't know what else I can do. a year ago at discovery of ow...3 things I wanted

we go to c
ow r ends including as customer
h start to take customers in our area


at first none were acceptable to h...

then ow friendship to end (though it didn't)

that was that...

this time I dropped the last request as he has his reasons (though I don't agree with them)
asked for us to go to c...not ready yet
asked for ow friendship to end and have been told that it has though she is still a customer..

so then what is h doing to meet my 3 requests?????

whatever someone just smack me please!!

LL

I will not allow myself to post anymore today!