I'm so sorry for struggle, and I'm praying for you. I really admire your strength and courage to stand for what is right. As difficult as that is, it's what we're all called to do.
I was wondering if you are positive that your H has been unfaithful again?
Also, he has a pattern of being very critical and judgmental of you. He needs to understand that he can not just slam you in the face with a baseball bat, and then just apologize and expect that everything is OK.
You are correct, he is sick. Alchoholism is a disease. Alcholics do all kinds of stupid, crazy, and hurtfull things to the people closest to them. Just think about it, your H has surrounded himself with other alchoholics, other sick people. Nothing is going to change for him unless something becomes very painful. Please check out Alanon, it's a great program and it's free, mostly. It'll help you understand, and help you cope with this disease.
God bless you Ali, you are a beautiful woman. Your H is sick and he's blind. You have given him ALL of you, but he is not able to realize the depth of your gift. You've done your part but how long should you go on giving it all, being vulnerable, yet unappreciated and the love and respect unreturned. He needs to be sober so that he can start to think clearly again.
God bless your struggle. I pray you be blessed with strength, courage, and the kind of faith that moves mountains. I pray your H gets sober, and realizes the beautiful woman that he has in you.
Stay strong and brave!
Love,
COG
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