Hi ROOT- I guess the roller coaster is hard to get off of huh! The feelings you have are valid. Can you discuss them with your H? You know that even if his perception is that he has a better time with OW, it isn't reality. You can't compare apples to oranges. What he has with you is real, but it is hard to compete with fantasy. Hopefully your H sees some of that reality. Hopefully when he reflects on his life, he will see that honoring his committment to you and your M is far more valuable than a any fantasy.
I do believe my H is in MLC. I have been posting over there for a while now. My thread over there is Anybody need a friend? I do!!! My H has completely backed away from me. He doesn't make any contact except for when necessary. Next week is our anniversary and his bday. I asked if he wanted to do something and he couldn't tell me...just said he has to work! I give up. I think I need to move on because I believe he is just avoiding dealing with anything. I don't think that I can wait around to watch him do nothing. He can't make a move in any direction. It is truly sad. I hope that he will come back to reality someday before it is too late, but I can't hold onto that anymore.
Stay strong. You are a beautiful, intelligent, loving person and your H would have to be crazy not to see and appreciate that. You can't dwell on your negative thoughts, they will only bring you down. Your H is there with you and your kids. Life is never perfect so appreciate what you do have and focus on that. I am sure I am not telling you anything new but maybe you just need to be reminded.
