Quote: . Maybe you could try and pay attention to some patterns that get you down.
there seems to be no real pattern... though I do notice that some days h tells me what he has to do and/or what he is doing and gives some sort of a time frame as to when he'll be home... when he does not tell me what he's got going on or does not bother to call until the token call letting me "you guys" know he's on his way home it bothers me. when he is physically distant it bothers me. when he declines my sexual advances it bothers me.
theese things I can let slide for a day or two but when they add up over that it starts to bring me down.
I do not know if ow is gone. I do not know if h is happy I do not know what h wants I do not know what h's needs are and if they are being met by me I do not know how h feels about me and our r I do not know much of anything cept that I do not know!!
I suppose I can just do what I keep saying I'm going to do and that is to not be concerned with how h acts around and/or toward me....but really that is not the r that I want to have...so then did I wait for him to come home so that we could rebuild our r...or did I wait for him to come home so that we could simply co-exhist??
