ya ya ok so I know that astrology is kinda crack pot...but still makes me wonder...thing is long before h and I were ever married I wondered if we were supposed to be together or if we were simply to meet and introduce his sis to my bro...things went on between them but it was a secret (they were young) and it has caused friction between h and I ever since...she thought (and I would assume still thinks) that my bro was "the one" my bro admitted to having considered once marrying her...so then it is possible that h and I were to meet to bring them together but becuase we stayed together it caused a problem for them to be together.
what utter crap that all is isn't it!!
I don't know if h and I are meant to be together or even if we will stay together...fact is we are together and somehow have to find a way to make it work so that we are both happy and satisfied with the r. I am ready and willing (always have been) to communicate with h, be it through counceling or just us at home, h does not seem to be ready or perhaps he is ready but is trying to do it without actually talking about it...but by trying to interperet my wants and needs.
it's all so damn confusing...I never know if what I am doing is the right thing for "us" or not. I suppose h would be happy if I was just happy...but I can be happy on my own...I don't know where I am going with this one so it's best to stop it there.
