Why is it that you have a good couple days, then not? I tend to do the same thing. Maybe you could try and pay attention to some patterns that get you down. However, maybe there's no pattern at all, and you're just tired...tired of focusing on the R. You've worked hard for a long time, my dear.
We've talked about this before, but I think we all come to a point when we realize that our S is one way and we are another. Sometimes they have their on days (like us), and sometimes their off days. Who knows why? We are chemical beings...when those chemicals are mixed a certain way and when the stars align on a particular axis, who knows what can happen? There are just far too many variables and we can control very very little.
I feel that sometimes so much of my mental and emotional energy is put into "thinking" and analyzing my situation that there's little left for much else. I believe many of us do this, and frankly, it's not healthy. Instead, I think what we need to do is practice detaching and working on ourselves. We say this over and over, and sometimes we do it, but most of us never do it enough...me included. I'm very guilty of this and know that although I've had a mindshift to focus on positives rather than negatives, I still "focus." I almost think I need to remove the focus and pull back to see the big picture...as do you.
I used to think that my W and I are soulmates. I'm not sure what I think anymore. I do think, however, that we were meant to be together...whether that's for 10 years, or for the rest of our lives I don't know. There are lessons to learn in everything. I've learned many on my path and know that I have many more to learn. What lessons have you learned? I imagine many.
Horoscopes, LL? For every horoscope that has something negative, I'm sure I could find one with a positive. I don't really believe that stuff. Why put your valuable energy into reviewing such things?
I think maybe you and I need to just sit back and enjoy the ride for a while. Enjoy what we are doing to improve ourselves. Enjoy our children, and enjoy our Ses for what they are willing to give. In time...and it ALWAYS takes time...I think they'll come around. Until then, they have to decide their own path. And in the end, you know you'll be fine. Right?
