I just responded to a newbie. It amazes me to how there are at least 2 or 3 "new arrivals" each day. Also amazing to me is the mental state of these first posts. I see myself in them, and also realize as to how far I have already come. How, yeah my sitch, still is, and still sucks, but I can live. Can have some bright moments in my day, how I can even let it go for a time and not "live" the pain of it 24/7 now.
Ha Ha, last night after I posted about how I intend on being patient. How I am going to stand up and be faithful. I decided to go out for a bit. Walked down to the bar 3 blocks away. I was put to the test a little bit. A fairly intoxicated female comes over starts talking to me and more than causully brushes up against me...... ohhhh, for the moment I was tempted. But did think it through, and yeah for 5 minutes (gimme a break here its been awhile, lol) it would have been fun. But the guilt and all the other crap afterward would have definatly not been worth it.
So anyhow, I am feeling pretty good today. Need to motivate my daughter to come to bank and the store with me before dance lessons, and I am not that motivated myself right now......
