Quote: Put down your quills and give your H a long, deep kiss and hug.
ok ok ok, so why have I not been doing this??? because for so long I was rejected by h, when I'd even try to sit on the same couch as him I'd get the " can't you see I'm sitting here" " I was comfortable" oh what a downer...I am even afraid to initiate sex due to the fact that for years (long before ow) I was often rejected (though I think that will pass due to a certain gift that my crazy friends gave me for my b-day, perhaps h doesn't want to become second to it and now also knows that if he's afraid of being to tired to perform he can use it) anyway...back to now.
soooooo... last evening as I was getting ready to go to the movies with my mom...h was down stairs with the kiddos (who were being let's say KIDS) h was sitting on the couch..I gave the kids their kisses and then went to h and basically layed on top of him and gave him a big hug...wich he reciprocated very warmly and then said...your not gonna make the show and you better get up or you wont make it to any show I said ok I'll go, maybe when I come back we can make our own movie...h laughed and said "if I'm awake" (h had a wicked habit of falling asleep as soon as his head touched the couch) well when I got home (11pm) h was still awake waiting for me
this am I made his coffee...he slept late again...sheesh what a diff from last winter he was out the door in the am and didn't get home til after dinner...now he leaves late and gets home by dinner if not before
so I've been looking for h to call me a pet name of some kind or something more endearing than just my full name (which only he calls me) and this am as he was leaving he said "ok lady, I'll talk to you later" ok so lady isn't the greatest of endearing names but it's getting there...think that sweatheart would knock me over or hun...so maybe were just taking it slow so as not to give me a heartattack!!
LL who thinks everything is going to be ok. now if I could just feel confident that ow is truly and completely gone! but then I suppose as I just told msSad....does it matter, if I'm getting the things I want so what if he still talks to her....that will dwindle...
