Into God's Hands....

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Originally Posted By: Shoe Goddess
Chick, Moises has told me the same thing.

I got down to his level, and looked at him right in the eye, and said, Papi doesn't have time for you?

You? are his heart, so could you just imagine, how busy papi must be?

Moises, with tears in his eyes, looked at me and said

Mom, you always make him out to be nice, but I know he is not busy.

Then I said, I am sorry you feel that way , do you want to write papi a letter, about it, or draw about it?

He usually says I'll draw, or he usually says later, or he may write in a journal I bought him.


It hurts like hell, but I will not add fuel to the fire.

I will not hurt my chidren more, by saying your are right, your father is an A HOLE he rather be with the whore's kids than you guys.


In time my children will learn what their father is doing, but that will be from their father.

They are babies, they need to be babies.

If I start crying with them, (and I did in the beginning ALOT)

My son starts thinking, that he needs to take care of ME.

and I can not allow my son to be in a parent role. He is 8 years old.

I have to protect them. I may be wrong, I may need to lay in on the line for them, the truth.

BUT, in my gut I just can't break their hearts anymore.

That is what I was trying to get across to you the other night. I , on the other hand am in a completely different boat now because the STBXW wants to see them everyday and all of the time as well as cries in front of them and I become the bad guy.

So all I can say is just stay strong for your D, she will know who the better person is on her own time just do not point her in any directions other than love. Tough but I think it is what we all need to do in these types of sitch's. Love always over comes everything else.