Thanks everyone. Appreciate the support. I have only seen my husband 4 times (I think that is the right number) over the course of like the last 2 months (and all those times within the last 3 weeks about), and everytime I see him, I'm more sure this is the right direction to be heading. Part of me feels guilty for saying that. However, I no longer know that I would take him back, even if he wanted to work on the marriage. He has openly admitted that the pain he has inflicted in the past year, he was very aware of it, knew it was damaging to me, disrespectful, and hurtful, yet kept doing it, and often I am not sure they he has stopped those behaviors. It is difficult to imagine actually wanting to spend your life with someone that has known they are hurting you and has purposefully and specifically continued to do so.
Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking. -Marcus Aurelius
