ok so why my sudden change of attitude. because I know that most of what I feel is simple frustration at the way things are dragging and what I am doing is focussing on the things that aren't going well instead of focussing on what is.
strangly enough h just called to straghten things out from our prior conversation.
first off appologized for being short, that he had just been out of the truck dealing with busted pins on the plow, had someone else in the truck with him, was tired from not getting much sleep, etc...
went on to explain exactly what the sheet was in a manner that was not defensive or aggrivated. appologized for my morning starting out that way. explained the "deal" that he has with the customer who's appartment he "had" (that's an odd way to put it cause as far as I know he still has it, suppose I will know that appartment is gone when I see the tv he has there in our basement) wanted to clear things up with me and said he was sorry. I also appologized for making such accusations.
so tonight I have a c appointment...I've been wondering for a long time if I should still bother to go. the c just seems to keep pushing the me going back to school thing and though I know it would be good for me now is not the time.
I wish h would go to c with me but that may never happen.
