I found you...of course, don't know why it was hard...anyhow, glad to see your posts.
I have not updated mine but I think it is more b/c I'm sad about d18 leaving for college in 8 weeks and knowing that I may never have all 3 kids (s21 is home for his last summer before college graduation) in the home again...and I know this is the way it is supposed to be! (Like I get that having d18 living forever in the attic is not actually a good thing, but dang, she is my buddy...) Naturally my sadness is somehow all H's fault...or so it seems at moments where I have to watch myself and say, wth are you mad at him for now at this moment? DOn't always have an answer but I guess it's the general "working on true forgiveness" that I have to do that I know you understand. So much harder and takes so much longer than I expected.
but then, the MLCer could make things easier for us to take them back. They don't want us holding crap over their heads forever and they're right for that. But i sure could use some more reassurances, plus my h told me he wanted the chance to be a better h to me, "kiss my feet" (nope, I did not request him kissing me there...) etc. But I think most of them want to apologize once or twice (recall your H's November incidents?) and or get remorseful, and MOVE ON....just takes us a little longer. And down deep I think there is some pride of mine maybe getting in the way, thinking h does not deserve me our M back...like I said, I am working on it.
BTW, no matter what cy says in his posts, please don't judge our church by his views...it's a big church with many different groups...you have my email, right? j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
