I should say too that I never thought of it in terms of "rejection" as much as being "turned down."
I would say that I never thought of it as "rejection" either until he started indicating that me being too fat or nerdy or whatever was the "reason". Early on I assumed the "reason" had to do with his drinking or tendencies towards depression. Therefore, I didn't think "rejected" or "turned down" but more like I was seriously annoyed because he so frequently had an "out of commission" sign up on his sexual door. My early "bad" HD behavior was mostly of the "barge my way in the closed sexual door with overtly sexual behavior" variety. For instance, I would rub up against him in bed or start playing with myself in front of him. In my defense, I should add that I didn't see anything wrong with behaving like this at the time. I just figured if a guy wasn't turned on the solution was to just act more sexy. Also, he always enjoyed the sex once it was underway so I didn't get any sort of immediate negative feedback.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
