Madonna/Whore Complex - Part 6

[Heywyre]

Ok so why am I feeling rejected?

H's friend called this morning and wanted H to meet him at the truck stop for a coffee around 10:00 am - no biggee. There was a car show on that H and I were going to go to but we had heard it was cancelled so H was going to check it out and if it was still on, come and get me and we would all go together.

So, it is now just after 12 and H calls, says they dropped by and there were a few cars but for the most part it wasn't a go. They (H and friend) looked around at the cars that were there and they are now "grabbing something to eat" and he'll be home later.

When I stayed home earlier, I figured it was a good time to catch on some other things that needed to be done while H had some "guy time" so I wasn't put out but now I feel like I am second fiddle again. I think the part that ticks me off the most is, as much as I like this guy, I really don't like his behaviour lately. His wife died 4 years ago and from about 6 months after her death he has been having an affair with one of the neighbours. The twist in all of this is, he is friends with the woman's H and the H thinks the world of this guy because he fills in (in more ways than he would care to imagine) when he is out of town (he drives longhaul too). The wife has Lupus and MS and sometimes needs assistance with things around the house and this friend of my H's is always there to lend a hand (he's like that with everyone, not just her).

But, here we are, trying to piece our M together and H is spending time with this guy that, quite frankly, I think needs a swift kick in the rump. He is always bitching about this woman and how selfish she is and yet he doesn't think anything of taking another man's wife - that's not selfish?

Of course, after H has spent some time with him he brings the subject up about how he doesn't think its right what he's doing, how the hell am I suppose to reply to that one? Birds of a feather?

It just makes me want to scream