I need some understanding from the men out there.

[fearless]

then I would consistently get rejected when I did initiate that it became "the problem" in my mind.

Yeah. That's why it was never a problem for us because I might get "turned down" one night and the within a day or two he would initiate or would accept my initiation. Easy to not be too bothered by an OCCASIONAL turn down, right? But then again I am pretty good about not taking things too personal in all aspects of my life:)

I should say too that I never thought of it in terms of "rejection" as much as being "turned down." I don't "reject" a chocolate dessert as much as "turn it down" when I don't feel up to eating a dessert. But tomorrow or later in the week I may be searching out chocolate:)