wecome to my nightmare 2

[Dr LOve]

Ok I am being pulled in two different directions today.


1. How do I know when the time is right to start building an R again? When is the right Time to start talking R again? I am afraid to say anything because I don’t want to lose everything I have obtained so far but I Do not want to live with this fear for the rest of my life. Living like room mates was what I accepted for the last year because we were married. I gave my vows and I was keeping them but then the W has to go have Sex with her XBF of 17 years ago. WTF.


2. The other problem I am having is WHY can I not “talk” to this A@@ H@le. Yes I know my W was the one that let it happen but the Fu@cken married BF went along with it. He could have comforted her and not had sex. So here he is married with no grief, no worries and screwing an x girlfriend out of state.


When I first found out my W said I better not contact him or his family or it’s over. What do you mean “It’s over? US?
I feel like I am less that a man for not sticking up for what is mine. He took something that true was offered but was not his to take. I don’t want to kick his A@@ I just want to talk to him. How can I get respect when I let this guy get away with it? How can I get respect when I LET my W do something like this and don’t say anything about it? I feel soooo sorry for all of you who’s S have filed papers but in another way It would be nice to be able to put this to rest. Sorry having a bad day. I am keeping a PMA today it’s my son’s B-day party. After we are going to the demolition derby to watch cars be crushed.

Husband