Stillme's Chapters Continue Some More

[stillme]

Thanks, N. Workin' on it. Going to the mall after church to return a few things and (yah/ugh) Mall Food for the kids. May catch a matinee while we're there.

Yeah, it's Sad I'm feeling but it's alot of Frustrated, too, I realized. I mean, if H can see how he was not promoting a Good R w/the KIDS & is now taking (great) steps to fix (or, uh-huh, SAVE) THE R -- why can he not allow himself the idea that he was not promoting a Good R w/ME &, by taking ANY (baby!) steps to fix it (what's the word: outside of 'fixing' the M), there'd be so much to work w/. . . That by choosing to DO THINGS in the kids' best interests, he is becoming happier as a dad, as a person and FEELING more loving & happy. So tho he was disconnected w/the kids thru his own actions/inactions, his new actions/inactions are connecting him w/the kids, but he will not/cannot/refuses to think that the same holds true regarding me/ourR/ourM.

Off to Not Think.