Does the pain ever go away?

[drbty]

Hey J_S!

CONGRATULATIONS ON A YEAR OF SOBRIETY!!

I'm db and I'm an alchoholic too. Man, I hate booze. It's sure cost me a lot. We know it's still a one-day-at-a-time thing though.

Just came across your post and for a minute thought it was one of mine. I could have written most of that.

I don't know if I'd have been able to stay sober if she had taken me back right away like I wanted.

Yep. Same here. I ran from God for so long. He finally thumped me on the head, saying "Son, you've got some lessons to learn and they're gonna' hurt."

The tragedy for us at this point would be to give up, not learn those lessons, and return to our old ways. We can't let this pain go to waste. Something good must come from it. JS, you have over half your life left yet to live. Your boys need you, and need you to be the best man you can be. One positive from this already is that they now have a sober father. How important is that?

I'm back in college too. (Should be working on assignments right now.) Almost done with 5 classes and nine to go. Scheduled to finish in less than a year. Are you doing days, nights, online, blended? I travel a lot for work and have found online the best for me, so far. LOT's of busy work, but it goes by fast. I think you'll really enjoy it, once you get started. You're a young guy. Heck, you could have a masters or two completed by the time you hit my age.

I was so very close to putting a shotgun in my mouth.. Yep, had those thoughts a few times myself. Thank God we're past that.

Hang in there brother,

-db