Why do these things happen IV

[JR2007]

make a schedule for the kids and stick to it and quit going to the lesson if it's causing things to be too hard. Give yourself some time too, it may do you a lot of good. Just a thought.

[789]

I think the time and space will do you both some good. Honestly. I think i'm in the same position that my wife hasn't had a chance to miss me. I'm trying, but to be honest I'm not sure if she ever will really miss me. I'm having a hard time coming to grips with the fact she may not. I'm having a hard time letting go. I'm trying to force myself to go dark on her but it's hard with the kids and the weekly lesson together.

I hope it will do us both some good, her for maybe missing me, and me knowing I cannot see her or really even talk to her. I have the same feelings you do, I wonder if she will miss me, I wonder if she even ever thinks about me/us, something I may never find out. This will be the longest I have gone without seeing her since we started dating, kind of forced darkness. Hope I can handle it as well as JR.

[789]

Well I am back from her place, she acted like I would see her tommorrow, but that is cool. I am starting to believe I need this next 2 weeks as much as she does.
I am gonna be hitting you JR about how you do it. Just haven't thought of the right questions yet.

[mkultra]

I wish I had that opportunity, to be missed. ALL this rejection is painful. I think it would be easier to be alone with the kids.

[789]

Well it would be nice if I had my son for the 2 weeks, but he I won't see him either after wednesday morning. I know he will miss me, have to wait and see if the wife does.

[789]

Well wife and I talked again tonight. Not sure were it is leading. She was asking me questions tonight, that is a first.

She asked about my drinking and if I thought I was going to win that war.
I told her I believe I am, anyone one who has gone thru with what I have in the last few months would be drinking by now if they weren't winning

She wanted to know how I was doing dealing with my past.
I also told her I was doing well with that, after a quarter century if hiding it, it is almost liberating and will survive it, but not the way I have been.

She asked why I did not take trips with her and son in the past, like the trip they are taking next week
I answered honestly, I could have the house to myself, quiet, beer, not having to answer to anyone, that and I was selfish.

I also screwed up the DB stuff again. I told her that this is the new me, that if we were to ever get back together that I am a new man, a family man and I hope she gives me that chance.
Her questions seemed wierd to me, almost like she was quizing me so she could grade me. Might be a good thing.

[NMHurting]

Well it sounds like her curiousity is definately up. That sounds like a good thing to me.

[789]

I hope so. I just paid our cell phone bill online, and I have been doing real good at not snooping or anything, BUT...
While paying it, it shows all the calls, times and lengths, well I noticed she called her parents last night and talked to them for about an hour, then immediatly called me with those questions I posted earlier. So I scrolled thru the whole month, she had only talked to them a total of 10 minutes on the phone till last nite. HHmmm, makes me wonder if maybe she is thawing out even more about us. I guess only time will tell.

[NMHurting]

Take it from a person who has discovered things he didn't want to know...don't snoop. It's not worth the buildup of expectations or the fall of disappointment.

Just let it flow brother.

[789]

I agree, wasn't snooping, just happened to be on the bottom of the page when paying it. If it had been a couple days ago, would of never seen it on the bill since I wasn't looking.