is sideways a direction?

[cire2]

Well a lot sure has happended, and I write this to remind myself that SLEEP and FOOD are the most important things to keep me emotionally stable and focused.

I don't believe any backslides have happended other than maybe i'm going crazy. Way to much thought and focus on a sitch that I am unable to affect any outcome over! Well maybe in the negative.

Right now I am leaving this for my own good. In my mind she has moved on and it's over. I stand in faith that what's best will happen eventually, and all my flailing will only delay this and harm me. I am not giving up, just letting go.

This is good timing because I fly out to Minneapolis tomorrow for a week. I WILL NOT be burdended with her actions! This is bitter sweet for me but I must do this for my own sanity, as my actions as of late aren't healthy.

I don't know when i'll post again, today, tomorrow, next week? I do hope some of you keep me and mine in your prayers though. It can only help!

Hopefully at some point I can share more details as to why I write this, but do understand it's for my own benefit and it's imperative.

cire