I'm glad you all think I'm doing the right thing. I just feel like I NEEDED to let go right now for my own sanity.
Terey-I know what you have gone through! For the last 3 years, H has installed a revolving door in our marriage. I ultimately had to acknowledge that it was only a revolving door because I never put my foot down. I too have held up the fix it or end it card to H. This time around, I am not holding up that card anymore. I'm comfortable and confident with my decision to move on with my life with no influence from H. I don't know if what I'm doing is right for anyone else. So, please don't take my post as any advice of any sort. I'm really really doing it for my own sanity. H has broken my heart too many times to count. Do I think he's serious about changing this time around? Sadly...no. I'm hopeful, but I can only go by our history together. The good news is that I have allowed myself to start really mourning and healing from the loss of my marriage. I am no longer looking to H for any answers for my own life.
If we do end up back together, it is only by God's will and no influence from me. If we don't, I will be able to look forward and say, without a doubt, I have no regrets.
Stay strong Terey, as well as everyone else, and ((hugs)) to you.
