I'm ok. Sad, but ok. Actually put money down for a lawyer yesterday. That felt yucky .....but a bout of reality which I need!

H came by last night....out of the blue! I was a bit abrupt and told him I wasn't ready to discuss financial stuff. He said "that is not why I'm here. I know your first priority is to find a new job!" He actually listened to me! (why NOW???) He STILL hasn't talked to his mother!!! She told me she hoped he did before she died.