Thanks for your support,,I think i'm finally at a point where I know its' over, i've been putting it off for so long not wanting to look at the obvious signs & symptoms that he was done and that it was over,,he was just trying to placate me or "help me" get thru this difficult time since he got over it so long ago!
But ML to my H to hold on to an already dead M, not asking me to spend any time w/he & the boys or his family is what has hurt the most. I can't be near him b/c I will want to touch him, hold him, tell him how much I love him,,,this pain is unbelievable!
All I wanted was my H back, to live w/me, share w/me, love each other, confide in each other, work our problems out together, raise the last 2 of our children together, grow old together,,was that so wrong to want or was I reaching a bit??
I just can't see how someone who protested their love so adamantly 8yrs ago could turn it off like a light switch?! I've told him that I did love him then and will always love him but of course he will never tell me he loves me ever again b/c he says we're thru, ouch ! For me,,at this moment in time, consider my H to be the most beautiful, smart & giving(just not to me) man in the world except for how he has treated me in the last few yrs! I know I deserve better and that I will find someone who will treat me better its' just that I spent 1/2 my lifetime w/this man & its' so hard to let go of all the happy times we had & some of the dreams we had,,but have to do it!
Holding on is too unhealthy for me right now,,,
Someone once said to me & I will tell it again,,
"Its' like war, the WAS has to 'Demonize' you(the enemy) 1st in order to justify killing you w/a clear conscience!"
Last edited by Kim07; 06/23/0712:47 AM.
M44H44 M18 T22 Sep7yrs-3/10 S23,22,15,11 10/07I file 2/08D postponed by H 2/09D on 3/09H moves in 8/09I kick H out 9/09H-PA 10/09-2/10mediate 3/10OW discoved 5/10H&OW engaged 7/10DDay w/atty
