Thank you for that post, and the hugs. They are needed tonight.
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I am feeling attacked by you. I'm sure you don't mean it that way, but my gosh, please don't tell me to do this, do that, quit this, quit that, assuming that you know best. My H (that's what he is) did NOT make it clear to me when he started up w/ this woman that he was done w/ our M. He was hanging around w/ me and the kids, doing things w/ us as family, refused to file for D...these are not things that I would expect someone "done" with a M to do.
I feel like you assume that everything I say is based on my assumptions of what I want to be true, but it's not. It's a little weird when someone suddenly, out of the blue, starts having phone conversations like this:
Me: Do you have one of my fans?
H: Yes, I have one of your fans.
Me: Can I have it back?
H: Of course you can have it back.
Me: Can I get it tonight?
H: No, you can't get it tonight.
If this started out of the blue and only happened when said person was with their gf/bf/ow/om, would you not find it odd? I do.
As for my accepting what he did to me (e.g. leaving me alone in the hospital), I don't know what you mean by that. I certainly told him I didn't like it. I didn't walk out on him, though. Yes, it's my issue, but it hurts to see him treating someone else better. Can you not understand that? I feel like you just don't get how much that hurts. Maybe you did not go through what I've been through with your X. I don't know. But it hurts like hell.
Anyway, that's all I have to say for now. I'm feeling blue now, but I will get over it. I would just appreciate some respect for me and my feelings from all of those here, not just my H.
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