Ah, I see. I'll stop playing the Twighlight Zone theme tune now
You are welcome ... I'm glad to be of help. Yes your posts sometimes do get a bit garbled but it's good in a way cos the feeling comes through on them.
one last thing I would recommend - some sleep! You don't seem to have been sleeping that well lately, hardly surprising but lack of sleep leads to muddled thinking. treat yourself now as you would a friend, be really kind to yourself and treat yourself. Your H has his problems, yes, but it's up to him to fix. Stop the fights, you're better than that.
OK - sleepbyes zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Bomb (ILYBINILWY, don't want to be married)Sept05 Seperated Sept/Oct 05 Oct 06 - H recomitted July 11 - I am now a WAW.
Well I just wanted to say thanks to you all .. LO, Husband, Flicka and Jen and everyone else , you made me laugh real hard and cry too. It is all good. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. REALLY!
I am going to "doll" myself up. I need to hit the shower.. I look like I was caught in a tornado,, it is actually very becoming ... LMAO! And if they ever have the sequel to the BLOB I am sure I could be the Star... just kidding guys! I know what he says is absolute Bull SH*T just ludacris....
Wonder what he is going to do when he sees I am still stong as hell.. ...he called again before.
He actually had me call his Boss in Columbus RE: getting paid.. I also talk to his Boss here about it and do the Invoices and pay the crew etc... but I dont get why I have to call someone who he works for down there... did it anyway and his Boss called me a bit ago and I called H he called me back and said " you called" "Yeah I called a**hole but not to talk to you .."
I thought,, GEEZ even Catholic Girls can only take so much!
And so anyway when I told him I called to let him know his BOSS called me a bit ago his response after I said "everything is squared away ok ?"
Did he think I was calling so say ILY?
His dumb rely was "GOOD GIRL" ... ARE YOU F*ING KIDDING ME?
Take your good girl comment and put it..... well you get the point.. of course being me I thought it but did not say it.
I am a Lady still and I always will be whether he thinks I am or not! Stand up for me but not act like a fool like him.
Ha ha ha - "good girl!""" What are you, some kind of pet!!!
Sorry - this had me laughing, but it's good to laugh at the sitch. Now - you take your fabulous self off for some good old pampering, you deserve it. Detach from H's behaviour and words right now, it's not good for you.
Bomb (ILYBINILWY, don't want to be married)Sept05 Seperated Sept/Oct 05 Oct 06 - H recomitted July 11 - I am now a WAW.
My H informed me a bit ago he wil be coming home tomorrow. I dunno if I am ready to act as if all over again?
He suddenly talked to his Boss here today. He says I should sound more excited that he is coming home.
MY response: M: How wonderful.
* last week I would have said " awesome baby are you serious?"
H: YEAH,,, I am pretty excited about it and ......... ..............
He tried to rope me in and I did not fall for it. I stayed calm and stood up for myself. He brought the conversation this morning up. And that I was making him have Anxiety.
Unacceptable behavior* I needed to set boundary.
I firmly and calmy stated . " You know what when I have anxiety it is not your fault. And I do not blame you. It is b/c I allow myself to feel that way likewise with you. You are blowing up and I have not raised my voice once. What happened this morning was Unacceptable. I had nothing to do with it. I simply was telling you what happened and if you knew her, I was not asking for you to fix it , change it or make it go away. It was not ok and it was rude and it cant be taken back. It just wasnt right. And I did not raise my voice to then either. It seems you can have opinions and I validate them and when I have one or want to say something you do not want to even hear it. Much less ever validate it." H: Silence M: I am not trying to argue with you it is you who always starts. and for some reason you dont see it.
Maybe I should not have said a word but he was going on and on and on.
PMA is rock bottom and I sound like the teacher in the Charlie Brown Cartoon. YUCK~
He also told me I am starting to act like I used to. ( he did not say like before the bomb but I knew that is what he meant) And to be honest I am.... I am in a funk and I am not thinking about it anymore. I just feel mentally exhausted. He said he needs for me to be Happy and Vibrant not sad so he feels like what he is doing is right. Off to Starbucks.... just for me. God bless...
Aside from your H being a rude and degrading to you what is your sitch? Is there an OW? Or is it this Female that keeps calling you. She may be a nut. I think you are doing great believing in your self with all of this negative talk towards you. Like I said from your pictures. (Witch is a neat idea) you are very attractive. (I love polish sausage and sour krout) trying to read your posts you seem a little confused. Or at least I’m confused. Maybe we all are confused. By the way what state do ya live in?
This post is starting to sound confused. I think I need another Rum n Coke.
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Yeah I was ready to start laughing too when he said that.