I know I shouldn't feel this way but I do. I come on here and complain every now and again because something hasn't gone right for me when there are so many others that are going through much worse.
My H talks to me. Many of you haven't spoken to your spouses in awhile. Even though I have been at this a long time, my situation isn't going downhill right now. I haven't got any reason to complain. My complaints have been so petty. Here some of you are dealing with divorce papers, no communication, hateful spouses, etc... and I am not going through that.
When I come on here to share a good positive thing I feel guilty. I know I shouldn't but I do. I spent all day yesterday thinking about this. I don't know how to respond to some of you on your threads because I am not really going through what you all are going through. All I can do is try to keep you all smiling. I have no words of wisdom. I have no answers.
I am more confused about things now than I was before. I don't even know if I should be on here. You all are the ones who needs support and guidance, not me.
Even though my H isn't at home, I am content at the moment the way things are. I can handle living this way. It is so weird. Even if he doesn't come home, we are friends and that is good enough for me. I would love for him to be home but sometimes we don't get what we want.
Sorry for boring everyone when they have REAL problems but I just needed to get this out.
I am feeling ok today. I need to go and get me a drink so I can take my meds cuz I feel a weepy moment coming on. Besides, if I don't take them then Ben will come kick my butt!!!
I feel that a lot, too, but if it stops us from coming here, the enemy has taken away two avenues through which the others might find hope.
We have come a long way through a lot of hard work on opposite sides of the track and there is no legitimate reason to feel guilty just because we're further along on this road.
