Vacillations of a WAW Come Home II

[sage]

Problem is, when I feel this way, I get upset, kind of go back to the old Jethro. Then...the old habits/patterns start coming up. I'm doing my best to try and avoid that. And, at least now I recognize them! I mentioned it to my W today that last weekend I was in a funk, and, as a result, some of the old habits come up. She said she noticed and it makes her wonder if I really am going to stay with these changes. I said I am. She said that it's only natural she feel that way because who I am is someone new and she's not used to me being that way yet... I guess she's still on guard... Interesting...
jethro

The feeling as though I've regressed to old patterns when upset is the hardest part for me....I try to cut myself some slack when it happens, though, partly because I AM trying hard and partly because beating myself up for a slipup never helps.

I AM noticing, though, that it takes me longer to get into bad habits than before AND I snap out of them more quickly. Same seems to be true for H.

Finally, all this DB'ing has made me better at the "I'm standing back and watching myself do 'more of the same'...what can I learn from this for next time?"



Sage