It is finally out, he wants a D

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Thanks so much. It has felt a little better to be somewhat unconnected. Yesterday I was quiet again at the kids physicals and he came over in the exam room and started rubbing my shoulders.

I said very little to him all night unless I had to. He mentioned that he was going to sleep in our bed but I see he slept on the sofa again. Starting to not even bother me like it did.

Don't worry, I know you are being truthful and not unkind. I WANT to hear what you think. I'm not sure he's nice because I changed the dance. I think it is a combination of things. Guilt is powerful. And he deserves lots of it!

I know I cannot stop him as I tried that the first time to a great failure. Will never try again. He has to want to be home.

Funny how true your statements are when you don't even know us. Like she says in the book, its like she is in our homes! I just wish I could be in his brain. He hasn't said it but its like she says, I love you but I'm not in love with u. Says he has "nothing" left and that he doesn't care for me anymore. I have a hard time believing in that. He says it didn't happen overnight. Well then speak. Why can't men speak????? They just keep quiet until hell breaks loose and then wonder why we are miffed. Like we should know what they think. Anyway, going to Sesame place today possibly with D7 so I gotta get lotioned up! Trying to still be normal you know. Tough as it is!