Thanks to everyone for stopping by. I'm in somewhat of a quandry...and maybe you guys have some insight. You see, I've been in a strange place the last couple of days. I think I've had to cut off some of my feelings in order to deal with the A. Now, I'm feeling rather apathetic about everything...don't feel those deep feelings like I was. It's making me uncomfortable and empty. Is this a natural progression to this crap, then those feelings will come back? Honestly, I think I'd rather feel the pain more if that meant I'd be able to "feel" more.
I get this picture in my head of cutting out a piece of my heart...the bad part that had to be changed to change the dynamics of my R...as well as trying to remove the pain of the A. However, I think some of the good ended up getting cut out at the same time.
I don't like this feeling... Any insights would be much appreciated.
