I think you've been very patient and understanding and your W and you sound as if you're both reconnecting really well.
Yes she made a bad choice and you may well have done the same thing given the circumstances.
Yep, I very nearly did. Honestly, it was 2 years of constant trauma, and the fact that we are still together as a family after all that gives me a lot of hope.
Remember, she made the moves for us to try again after I'd pretty much accepted that we were over, and she asked me if we could have a 'fresh start', and she said that she 'wanted to build a newer and better life together'. Also remember that right now, she doesn't actually NEED me here as such. Technically, on paper, this is her house, she's the one with the regular full time income, and I'm here re-building my business.
So, I'm assuming she WANTS me here. Actually, no, scratch that. I'm not assuming - she's told me as much herself.
Originally Posted By: shmagic
Its hard to put into words what I mean about just going for it and being more forceful.
I know exactly what you mean. It's hard being in my position and knowing how forceful to (or not to) be. Like last night, we were watching TV late last night and she was lying with her head in my lap, and she loves her hair being stroked, and just recently I've found her super weak spot again which is the hairline on the nape of her neck, and I'm tracing my finger along it, and she's shifting around like she used to when she felt turned on, and I'm just kinda holding her tight, and we decide to go upstairs, and we spoon in bed, and I can feel her pushing back against me, and she's rubbing her feet up and down my legs and, and... shoite! I just couldn't find the guts in me to try to take it any further and we fall asleep against each other.
Again.
I guess all that rejection is really beginning to take its toll on me, eh?
Maybe I'm the one with the problem... heh.
(Oh, and Mrs. AC - I think I've said this before, but if you happen to discover all this, it's just me journaling, and trying to work things out in my own head, 'k. x )
