Thank you I cant sleep although I have tried and I feel sick to my stomache... I have been going back and forth with this in my head and I dunno but I feel like I can take no more... and by beautiful, I mostly mean personality wise . he is good looking but I would trad that inj a hearbeat for integrity.
I feel so upset and frustrated and no tears just anger ... and yeah that does about some him up ... I really foolishy believed he was better.
Thanks being me I felt like I was going to explode til I read your post.. and when he said all those mean things to me I just stayed calm and get this... I went Roller blading for an hour earlier this eve and he called and asked what I was up to and as he called someone driving honked , he had the nerve to call me back and ask who was honking? ARE YO F'ing serious .. he needs help. serious help,, and now that i think of it maybe I do ,, why do I stay anymore. I am sure he will try to explain his way out of this one,,,, scary is that what he is doing is upsetting but I am getting so numb at the same time and maybe it wouldnt be so fun for him to be a PIG if I werent in the picture... I feel sick.. thank you for you post.... I am afraid that I cant get over this, really afraid for my kids. I told him if he ever cheated again and I found it it would pretty much be over . He is sick and needs help and I cannot give it to him... God please help me find strength...LOve ,Ali
