18 mos and counting...

[MonicaP]

Thank you so much YoYoW, Husband and Cat03!

YoYo - I feel for what you are going through, I'm sorry and wish you the best.

Husband - thanks for the hug!

Cat03 - your words will resonate with me, I appreciate what you said about this being the beginning of a very GOOD life. I'm working on it! I also love the analogy of H looking at the finger and not the moon. He sure is missing the brilliance and the beauty that I and my S4.5, as a family, have to give. He clearly doesn't value family in the same way. It's ironic, or maybe telling, that his parents have in fact been M for over 30 years happily, yet not without their problems. I think H began to envision his life going on this singular plane like his parent's life has gone. They have a wonderful home, both work hard, they're close with their family, etc.. but they stick very close to home and don't step out of their routine or comfort zone often. The first time they were on an airplane was to come here to see us. Anyway, I am sure that H has unresolved issues about his childhood (what else is new) and he's acting them out by regressing to adolescence and the only way he can justify this in his own mind is by staying in denial.

Well, today he got angry at me for not giving him the "courtesy" of telling him before I filed. Ha! Courtesy! Maybe if he did me the courtesy of not cheating on me and leaving our family I might have returned the favor. He is so selfish! I explained that I in fact didn't know that the court was going to file my papers when they did. Anyway, he emailed to say that he thought it would be best just to file for a "proper divorce and move on." I emailed him back to say he would have that option when he responds to my papers.

Well, it's all too much to process right now. I need a distraction - going to go relax.

I am so thankful for your support. It just saves me to know that I am not the only one going through this hell - not that I want anyone else to have to face this.

Peace.