Sashaying thru Seperation V

[mcojh]

Well, it was an okay day, but my expectations are getting the best of me again. We went bowling today with the youth group from church. I wasn't originally going to go, but CW asked me to go several times, because the boys in the group have fun with me. Anyway, we had a good time. I had gotten home late from work and didn't eat. As bowling was wrapping up, I asked CW if she wanted to keep me company while I got something to eat. I knew she had eaten supper. She immediately said yes. She is helping me out with a part time job tomorrow so S15 doesn't have to do 3 days in a row. I never asked her to do it and she is offering all the help I need. This part of it seems good.

The part of it that has me down due to expectations, is CW renewed her license today and changed the address to her apartment. Not a big deal. She is also using a checking account that is only in her name that she got just prior to moving out. Up until this point, she was using a second joint account that we had and that her paychecks were direcrt deposited into. She now has them go to the new account.

The analytical part of my brain says that this is no big deal and it means nothing, but my emotional side sees this as a huge step backwards.

Which actions mean more? Her actions towards me or her actions towards the other stuff. Maybe I am just tired and over thinking, but it confuses the crap out of me.