Hmmm...just wanted to stop by and say there's nothing to report. Just living life as jethro and family. I "worked from home" yesterday. I actually did a few things, but it was light. My W had some orientation for a project she's going to do and needed me to watch our D...so it gave me an excuse to work from home. I'm glad she's taking it upon herself to do these things. Also, my W is very motivated to do stuff to our house these days. I really think she wants a fresh start, not only in our R, but in our home as well. I'm encouraging her enthusiasm.
It does seem like day-by-day she's getting closer to me. If I think back two or three weeks even, she seems even more comfortable around me today. She was pretty goofy yesterday, which was fun. Unfortunately, OM thoughts kept entering my head...I think it was because I had another nightmare. It got me down, but not too bad. Nothing like it would have even a month ago. She notices my distant stares and asks if I'm okay. I smile and say yes, but she knows what I'm thinking about. I just try to avoid conversations about her A as they really serve no purpose...only remind her of her infidelity and the pain she has placed upon me. Yes, it feeds my ego, but it is not good for our R. I'm realizing this more and more.
Anyway, feeling pretty good. Had a good Yoga session last night, then went over the ILs to jam a bit. This morning I worked out pretty hard, so I'm sore. All in all, I can't complain...
I get home and I could tell my W was bit distant...in her WAW mode somewhat (but not bad). We get in the car with the kids and go get something to eat. Kids are bickering in the back seat and my W is getting a little frustrated while I'm trying to diffuse their bickering. I turn to my W and say, "You want to run away?" (she knows what I mean by this)... Her response, "Yes." I then went on to tell her I could turn around and go home so she could bail. I was sincere, as I didn't want her to have that trapped feeling. She said, "No." So, off to dinner we went.
It ended up being an enjoyable evening. We went to grab a quick bite, looked at some furniture, and went to Home Depot. Like I said previously, she's motivated to change things in our house, so we're looking at different things to do to our house.
We get home and put the kids to bed. We end up downstairs talking...me on the couch...she on the Lazyboy. We talk a few minutes, exchange a few smiles, then all of a sudden she says, "You're sweet." I say, "Thanks. That's nice of you to say. Why do you say that?" Her response, "Because it's true." I said thanks again.
Then, she stares at me for a moment, our eyes locked, and says, "I love you." I was floored, really. Wasn't even sure I heard her right. It's odd...like time slowed down and my brain took a second to "accept" her words. Naturally, after the momentary shock, I responded in kind.
We exchanged a few smiles without saying anything. She got up and I gave her a kiss. Nothing else was said about it, but I felt like I was on a cloud...
Now, I have no illusions that this is what she's feeling all of the time; however, at least I know she's feeling that love sometimes and telling me. Over time, I think she'll feel it more and more often. Patience...
Just stopped by to say Hi. Dwnlded your thread and will catch up and get back to you. I'm over in MLC and still in newcomers. Can't hang to long in MLC but I'm tryingnto learn all I can.
Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY! Jethro got an ILY!
What more can I say. Im smiling.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
Quote: ... however, at least I know she's feeling that love sometimes and telling me. Over time, I think she'll feel it more and more often. Patience...
You got your action plan - Patience. You're in a marathon and have gotten a welcome stretch of road but there will still be those hills to run. What I wouldn't give to hear a ILY from my W!
In the end, you're the best judge on what to do and how fast to move. We're all happy for you, Jethro!
I actually did a few things, but it was light. My W had some orientation for a project she's going to do and needed me to watch our D...so it gave me an excuse to work from home. I'm glad she's taking it upon herself to do these things. Also, my W is very motivated to do stuff to our house these days. I really think she wants a fresh start, not only in our R, but in our home as well. I'm encouraging her enthusiasm.
