Gaining Some Understanding - thread 3

[HalfMissing]

Hmmm...
Just yesterday I looked up the email address of an old college boyfriend. I haven't sent a message but I thought of doing it, just for kicks. I am so bad! For all I know he could be married or in the priesthood. But you never know.

I was talking to my dearest friend today. We have been best friends since 1st grade and she was my maid of honor and I was her matron of honor. She said that she honestly believes that my H has loved me and been happy all these years. She thinks he had a mental breakdown and there isn't really anything I could have done about it. She said that she is sure I will find someone again someday, and maybe it will be someone who is excited about life. (H was never excited about anything.) I told her that first I have to get myself to a point where I will never be afraid of feeling alone like this again.

I am glad you are feeling better today. I find myself cycling more. I can go up and down multiple times in one day. I dread this weekend. I always get down when the kids are gone. I need to try to keep busier.