Robbie, your analogy is pretty good. It is a race, marathon, or triathalon...(give me my oxygen tank and a liter of Gatorade)... Without Michele's books and everyone's encouragement on this BB, I probably would have given in to the pain and given up. And yes, I have a hard time seeing the big picture. Every day is a challenge.
MsSad, I'm sorry you're feeling as though you need to contact a dating service. Yes, my W does give me reassuring words, but remember, she ended the A about four months ago (at least the physical part). Your H has just recently done it. The wounds are still entirely too fresh...for both of you.
Hey Floyd, good to hear from you. I can't help but think I'm you so many months ahead. You know what I mean?
KAW, always a pleasure, my friend. I take no offense to your rhetorical comments/questions. Believe me, all that you have said has entered my mind at one time or another. I'm constantly "meditating" on my situation...trying to find peace with it. Peace for me is forgiveness in recognizing that my W is in pain and has made a mistake that she regrets. Peace for me is pushing those images out of my head with her and the OM. Peace would be knowing that she feels about me the way she thinks she should feel about her H. The first two things are achievable. The last, I'm not so sure about. This is what really keeps me up at night. I know, detach, I have no control. For now, it comes down to one thing: I will not be responsible for inflicting on my children the kind of pain she has inflicted upon me...by splitting up or by giving up. Time, patience, and forgiveness...none of which are easy...
