Sometimes you take the words right out of my mouth. I know exactly how you feel.
I also had my first dream about the A about a week ago. It was horrible, but I woke up alone with nobody to help comfort me. Mine was almost the same, I found out about multiple men. In my dream I pretty much lost it. Not a good dream.
Anyway, I hope today is a better day for you. I know its up and down day by day, so today should be a good one (hopefully).
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.