Lunch! Having a fabulous Burrito btw. Ran out and grabbed my little girl something for her dance recital tonight. YAY.
Ok...so not sure I have time to post to everyone here but let me throw some stuff out there.
Maybe Friend is the wrong term...although I would like that. I guess I will treat her in a friendly manner and if she can continue do the same...great. I say continue because we are friendly to one another. Yet there is a tension...and i do hope that can go away.
And if I am up to the task...I will treat her like a friend. Ask how she is doing, ask about her life, take an interest in her, etc. There may be times where I am unable to do that...and that is ok. I'm certainly not obligated to do that...and she is not currently doing it for me.
Ben - never said her affair was "ok". It is not...not by a long shot. But it happened and there is nothing I can do about that t change it. So I do need to accept it and move on from it. It is just healthier for me not to treat her with resentment. Where does that get me?
The goal is to at least be friendly (currently doing) and maybe someday be friends....yet to be seen. And maybe that can't happen for years. Who knows.
SOTS - I know I will get angry and resentful - how could I not...but you are right...I do not wish to live my life that way. And I see that. I see people who live their lives in missery because they can't let go of the hurt their X did to them. Just not who I want to be.
I have forgiven myself for my actions. I have to...because I have to live with myself and therefore I need to accept myself - the good and the bad. But I also do not want to forget my mistakes because I do not wish to re-live them. And, btw, my kids have seen WAY too much angry.
I'm obviously not going to be a saint and I WILL get angry. But I guess I'd rather aim high so to speak.
I'm sure I'm missing stuff...but kicking this dead horse is making me tired.
