Just got served divorce papers in the mail. Have a provisional hearing July 9th.
She just called me on her lunch break about some appointments for the kids and some personal business matters. I then just told her I have been thinking about her, told her how I felt she had been purposely blocking me out because she knows if she let herself connect with me again that her feelings for me would come back. To my amazement she didnt protest my statement. She said well you know it might take a while for those feelings to come back, and I cant even promise you that they will ever come back.
Geez oh gosh, you wanna talk about an emotional roller coaster ride. I went from hating her for filing for divorce on our anniversery, to actually going up there and filing with her, then had sex with her for the first time since she left me, now talks of dating, and now not totally admiting she was blocking me out, but not denying it either, and then saying it could take a while for her feelings to come back (even if it came with a disclaimer of they might not ever come back).
What the heck is coming next? Gosh! I wonder if the act of actually filing for a divorce with talks of court dates and getting the process legally started has made her have some kind of a wake up call.
