ok... so since you can't control him, or what he'll do or won't do, maybe we should focus on you.
i'm hearing a lot about what he did wrong in the marriage. and that is good to recognize and communicate and understand.
have you read the 5 love languages? what are your needs? what are your husbands? how do you feel they were both met or not met in the marriage? what do you feel were your shortcomings in the marriage?
i am not saying or asking that to pick on you. i am asking it to try and focus on something that you can control and change since you can't control your h or how he will react or change from all of this so for the time being, it is best to focus on you.
Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking. -Marcus Aurelius