I'm gonna finish with this post and then I am done with this convo for a while. It needs time to sink in.
No one is telling you to hate her or do mean things. That is not my point.
Every decision you make about relationships, with a woman, a friend, family, enemy, is driven by emotions. You make your decisions based on those emotions. It is not allowing emotion to run your life, it is using emotions to help you make choices.
I clearl understand how you work with all that we have been through together. I can clearly see that you are going on a I am a better person that that kick right now to keep from going off, I respect that. Bottom line though, tell yourself all you want that you won't hold stuff over her, you will. You will remember what she has done, just as she remembers what you did. It's just reality.
Just try not to wrap yourself up to much in having to be perfect scott, your not. Deal with it. You, in time, will realize what I am meaning by all of this and understand it better when you are in a different place than you are today.
I will be out of pocket for the next ten days as you know. Take care of yourself while I am gone my friend. You will be in my thoughts and prayers while I am gone.
